I realized today that I hadn't shared anything about my weight loss journey here yet.
Two & a half weeks ago I purchased a 3-month subscrition to Weight Watcher's Online Program.
I've "struggle" with my weight for the past few years. To be honest, my whole life I was tall & thin.
As I got older, my body changed little by little but it wasn't a "bad" thing. I loved my new curves.
At 5'7" I was comfortable with my 135-140 lbs. When I was pregnant with Memphis, I gained about 80 lbs and was 211 lbs at my last checkup. I had been retaining a lot of water, so after he was born I lost most of the weight easily. Nursing him helped too. Again, my body had changed... but I was proud of the reason why. I was back to 140 lbs when I got pregnant with Ruby... I gained 45 lbs that pregnancy. Again... Just a few days after she was born I easily fit into my pre-pregnancy clothes:
My weight stayed relatively the same for the next few years. I never really "had to" exercise or watch what I ate...
The past 2 or 3 years, though, have been a different story. Again, I was getting older and my body was changing. I knew I was gaining weight, but instead of doing something about it, I just made sure to buy larger clothes. Looking back, the weight gain definitely started when Memphis started acting out and his behaviors started causing problems at daycare & school. It was totally stress-related. Without a doubt. Unfortunately, even with a diagnosis, things weren't easy. It has taken us years to get Memphis on the right medication & to know the right interventions to help him get through his days. Oh, my husband also suffered a major depression during that time and it was hard on all of us. Emotionally & financially.
I started hating my body, but instead of getting into a healthy routine, I continued hiding it with cute clothes...
I'm tired of not being comfortable and have finally made the decision to get healthy.
I'm not even setting a "goal weight." I would love to be able to say I lost 30 lbs... but what I want is to feel good, look good and be happy with my body again. Maybe that'll happen 10 lbs from now... maybe 35. I just know that I've lost the first 5 and it feels great!
What I love about Weight Watchers is that I'm still able to eat my favorite meals & foods... in smaller portions and with a better attitude. The fact that I paid for a subscription means I will hold myself accountable for what I eat... I'm cheap that way. ;)
I'm stocking the fridge with lots of fruits & veggies and making sure I don't bring home any foods I would be tempted to eat that I shouldn't... so far, so good!! Wish me luck!